What I wanted to say

I am a talkative person, I talked a lot both in real life and on blog, so what you see is really what you get, nothing enigmatic about me, I find ‘mystery’ a bore and enjoy finding semblance of comfort in familiarity.  However, there are times where I find myself stumped with words too.  Recently, I found drama enveloped me and I mourned the loss of a few friendships (nothing happened to them or anything, we just dropped contact).     

The interesting thing about dropping contacts is that once it is dropped, it became excruciatingly difficult to pick it up again especially when such contacts were dropped almost unceremoniously.

So I shall, today, using the beauty of blogging to write down what I wanted to say, and perhaps, just perhaps, these ‘friends’ of mine will be able to read them and get some form of closures.

For those whom I assumed liked me (or have deep feelings for me)

I am sorry that I am not able to reciprocate whatever affections that you held for me.  I simply have no interest towards you or whatever you have to offer.  There is a strong character mismatch and your incessant interference into my life is disturbing my living and giving me nightmares.  I wish that you can move on and perhaps find the right person who is able to meet your requirements and return similar affections towards you.  I am a straightforward person, when I said no I meant no, not “maybe”.  I am not that great either; I have so many flaws that I am scared of myself.  Please don’t succumb to “stalking” antics of either me or my friends because you are starting to annoy them too.  It is really unhealthy and you really must stop.  There is a reason why we are no longer talking as I am sincerely tired of running away and fearing you.  Please do move on and take another path, there is no more road on my path.  It is the end of the journey for us.   I wish you well and hope that you find happiness in your future endeavors. 

For those that just… moved on

I am sorry that we didn’t keep in contact as much as we could.  I understand that we are both busy and that we eventually would need to move on with our lives.  I just want you to know that I shall always be there for you in your times of need.  I would even fly to you if you needed that presence of comfort.  I know you will do well and when things are settled, please do look me up. 

For the one whom I like

I am sorry that I had chosen to fall for you.  I sincerely miss you but I do not wish to make situations awkward for the both of us.  I appreciate your presence in my life and I do wish that one day we shall be able to continue that again.  I also wish you well and may you receive the love and desire that you so deserve.  At the end of the day, know that I do miss us.